never everrrr !!!

17 Nove 2012

It's funny. Ini blog terakhir yang gue bikin, jarang gue tengokin, tapi isinya paling banyak (dan paling ngga jelas). Almost, or maybe all of posts just complaining or angry or disappointed or else. Tapi gue malah suka liatnya. Meski tetap ada topeng di blog ini. Iyalah, gila aja, gue ceritain aja gitu ke sedunia? Njeesss.

Today sih, gue cuma pengen bilang aja. I HATE NEGLECTing. I've enough being neglect in my childhood. ENOUGH. So, I WON'T be with someone or people (yeah, i untrust you people) who will be neglecting me like my parents treat me as a child. HURT you know.

Afraid

I afraid to think that i <3 u so that much. I afraid to be hurt (again). But in few months, everything seems like ... to be ok forever. Nothing forever, i know. Too many things in my mind, too many fears of. Maybe i can love you today. Hope i'll stand forever, so do you.

This fears unreasonable, sometimes. But sometimes isn't. I don't know how do you feel. Are you feel the same? Are you think that much 'bout me? Are love me enough to be sure? I love you but i'm not sure. For me this is not wrong. This is so reasonable, i'm not picky. Maybe your effrots are enough, just may fear need to fade away. I think that much, as always.

I don't want to loose you, but in same time, i'm not sure at all. Are we make it? Are we worth it for one another? Are we? Are we? Are we can be OUR?

I didn't wanna you change, even the worse things. But i want to... to be sure. I want to everyone happy with my choice. I want my self HAPPY. It's all. :)

bitches

gue juga pernah jomblo kali, tapi ga segatel itu ama laki orang!

lo gatel gue garuk sini, PAKE PISAU!

so, wrong again.

14th January 2012

So, today i decide to brought a calculator. In my opinion, my intention, it just can "u" use during examination.

Guess what? I'm wrong again to try being initiative to help.

"u" always right. :)

ALWAYS YA?

just so simple, then i have veryveryvery a worse day. (very much!)


JUST SO SIMPLE. :)
Life show me anything i can't expect. How nice. :')
Good deeds lead to bad, how can expected?

boomerang of yours

you're not even realize that everything you said was for yourself. if you say i'm not counting all of your kindness, so, what do you think you really did????? i gave anything, even world say don't. i fight the world, my LORD, people think, my mind, parents, anything that i know they're not accept. i don't wanna to see as hero, really i don't. it doesn't matter. i know that i have pay anythings even i can't, to you, because everything you did for me. so thank you very much!

even milions can't pay anything you gave, i know. but please, i just don't understand that everything in LOVE have to say THANK YOU. i thought it just heart, just our feelings, just love and be loved. i thought. but, for manymanymany times, I AM WRONG. :)


So, thank you MY HERO, deaR.
because save my life first, and make my alive untill today.
so, thanks for everything you gave, you did, you to be for me.
THANK YOU. :)

it was no longer FIT at all

but i force it into the limit...

sorry, but i have not chance to go or let go. so, i will accept anything will happen then. the end will be not different or it will. hope for the best, prepare for the worst. i can say anything but, my heart can't. i didn't feel the same for a long time. so, today, what the different ? don't you know about all painfullogics, do you? oh, you don't.

i'll be more patient, lil be more. but, i can't expect more. us or me and stranger. just it will be. i know lil 'bout you. :')

if it's goodbye, it won't have any tears, any screams, any anything. just peace. :)
let me go if you let me go.

07 December 2011

dua puluh dua

5 Nove 2011

semalem gue mimpi pulang, rasanya menenangkan dan menyenangkan sekali. :')
rasanya bener-bener nyata. gue pengen cepet-cepet pulang. pulang. pulang. o:)